ok tyren got distracted and i felt like writing more...so i felt like after that huge vent that i should talk about something positive cuz it seems that my blog has so much more negative than positive in it and i don't want it to seem to those that don't know me that i'm just a miserable person, because i'm not. i am a positive type person, i just use my blog to vent. its my outlet...and my hand journal that i write manually in, the stuff i cannot publish on the web because its too personal or its about people that might read it here.
anyway, i thought i'd share what i'm working on.
i feel like tyren needs something just for tyren. he's only 2, but i think he's ready for SOMETHING.
maeven has art class and nana time (my mom takes her to the library weekly and back to her house for a cooking project or takes her shopping or some other nana-fun thing, for a couple hours one day a week) and bompa time (my dad takes her for piano lesson and to work on a woodworking project or just to run errands and get ice cream and have a couple hours for some special bompa time, once a week) and daddy/daughter time (a few hours on sundays just daddy and maeven...they go to the zoo or the museum or whatever and have fun together), and nana/bompa nite (adam and my date nite where they take her friday nites for 3 hours so adam and i can be alone, although now we are not alone because tyren is here and not able to go with them yet...soon though) ...and she has kid yoga one day a week and at least one day a week that we go to a friend's house for her to play for a few hours with her friends, and sometimes her friends come here as well...and she used to also have science class but that got cancelled...and she used to also have gymnastics but she stopped going. so maeven has a lot going on...
but tyren doesn't have anything specifically for him. i tried to take him to the mommy and me gymnastics that happens at the same time as maeven's gymnastics but he was just disruptive and it didn't work. he does participate a little in yoga, though, but the other stuff he's not a part of (stays home with me). so i want something just for him. he's a social little guy and none of maeven's friends have younger sibs the same age as him.
so i've been thinking of starting up a mommy and me class in our house again...but then i thought that's too much work, and i don't need more work...so i think i'll just do a casual playgroup. and i'm actually really kinda excited about the idea! because my mommy group doesn't have any regularly scheduled activities anymore, so it could use it, and because tyren could use some new friends and because *I* could use some new friends as well!
ever since my friend debbie moved away i haven't felt that same deep connection with another mommy that i had with her...it feels like a hole in my heart. *sniff* seriously, i miss where my friendship with debbie was going, and i've never hurt so completely over losing a friend like i did when she moved. :( it STILL hurts and it was like 5 years ago!! anyway, i do have friends...not as many as i used to, but i have plenty...but none are on that deep level where i want to just pick up the phone and call them on a whim and share my innermost feelings. it takes a very special friendship to reach the depth and i would sure love to have that again at some point. so anyway...tyren needs friends, i need friends...maeven is pretty much set for friends...but tyren and i could really benefit from a playgroup...meet some new people. even if there isn't anyone that becomes our new best friends, it could still be very fun!!
so that's my immediate plan...start having playgroup...which will force me to clean my house once a week, something i need the kick in the butt for. (actually, amazingly i've been doing pretty darn good with some of the house stuff lately...so shouldn't be too too hard to get it ready for a playgroup).
AND i want to have a science club for maeven. that's my other plan. i haven't figured out what to do for science for maeven yet and cindy (one of my friends, and maeven's friends' moms) suggested that we get something together for group science learning, which i LOVE the idea! so i want to do that as well! hope we can do it in the mornings when it would work best for tyren.
so those are my 2 most immediate things i'm working on to help de-stress our lives and make things better...playgroup and science group. more on it as things begin to happen! i am really excited to get both of them going! i think having people over here or going somewhere regularly would really help with all the bickering that's been happening around here recently...we just need something to break up our days and focus us better. :)
ok now back to my family...i'm feeling much better now after these 2 long posts...i think my hubby will be happy to see me return to the family, lol!